when i write stuff on this blog i just write what i feel. i guess i like having pple know how i feel or what has happened to me tts y i let pple read my blog but i dont write because i want a response.yah it feels good when ed or zy msgs me to ask me if im ok when im down and stuff but i really dont say stuff because i want them to...maybe it seems that way but its not.everyone is entitled to have thier own feelings and thoughts on things and this is where i record down mine.i think it kinda defeats the purpose if i refrain from saying stuff just cos i know that whoever its abt reads my blog...i dunno lah but i really din mean to make u feel bad.
anyway. mummy daddy and stef are coming back today :)i bot durians for them on my way home haha... they shld have reached the airport now... i guess i din really miss them when they were gone but i am looking forward to seeing them again :) and i wanna see wad they bot for me!! haha ok tt sounds qt bad
anyway i was thinking abt selfishness. sometimes i feel that such and such a person is being selfish cos he or "doesnt care abt what other pple have to do to accomodate them" but i realised tt invariably the "other pple" is always myself. and i guess its selfishness on my part also right, that i judge them based on the inconvienience that they give to me.i guess that everyone is selfish in thier own way, its just a natural thing to feel.im not saying its right just tt its in our innate human nature.thats y only love can overcome selfishness cos only when u love someone will you be willing to undergo inconvienience for tt person.to be selfish is human, to love divine haha... tts wad i came up with myself. my new resolution is to be less selfish and more willing to accomodate the foilbles of others cos anyway its not like im infallible myself.i pray that i might overcome my slefish nature cos i know only with God's help will i be able to do so.all the times when im irritated at pple and impatient with them its like so uncontrollable and i feel so helpless that i cannot fight my base human nature. i guess i need to pray more... have been falling behind in my qt and stuff which is really bad i guess and i keep nodding off during 2:7 which is REALLY bad cos aunty mag is too nice to tell me wake up... its amazing how tho so often i cant be bothered to sacrifice my 'precious' time for God but yet he will reveal Himself to me and speak to me in my daily life and events that happen.i used to feel that God is so far cos i have nv literally heard Him speaking to me cos like pple keep saying if u listen and wait God will speak to you but no matter how i try i nv hear anything...but now i know that God does speak to me, just in a different way i guess and in a more profound way too cos its like thru applications and stuff.i wish i could be what He wants me to be but i know that it takes lots and lots of time and teachability. dear Lord, please help me to grow into the woman You want me to be cos i know i can only do it with ur help...
anyway trg today was not bad i guess... we stopped for a while cos of rain but we managed to do qt alot today i guess... haha... i always really dun look forward to trg but i guess its ok lah i guess haha...there was some tension today tho...i oso dun really wanna be involved in it lah...ok! THEY"RE BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
anyway. mummy daddy and stef are coming back today :)i bot durians for them on my way home haha... they shld have reached the airport now... i guess i din really miss them when they were gone but i am looking forward to seeing them again :) and i wanna see wad they bot for me!! haha ok tt sounds qt bad
anyway i was thinking abt selfishness. sometimes i feel that such and such a person is being selfish cos he or "doesnt care abt what other pple have to do to accomodate them" but i realised tt invariably the "other pple" is always myself. and i guess its selfishness on my part also right, that i judge them based on the inconvienience that they give to me.i guess that everyone is selfish in thier own way, its just a natural thing to feel.im not saying its right just tt its in our innate human nature.thats y only love can overcome selfishness cos only when u love someone will you be willing to undergo inconvienience for tt person.to be selfish is human, to love divine haha... tts wad i came up with myself. my new resolution is to be less selfish and more willing to accomodate the foilbles of others cos anyway its not like im infallible myself.i pray that i might overcome my slefish nature cos i know only with God's help will i be able to do so.all the times when im irritated at pple and impatient with them its like so uncontrollable and i feel so helpless that i cannot fight my base human nature. i guess i need to pray more... have been falling behind in my qt and stuff which is really bad i guess and i keep nodding off during 2:7 which is REALLY bad cos aunty mag is too nice to tell me wake up... its amazing how tho so often i cant be bothered to sacrifice my 'precious' time for God but yet he will reveal Himself to me and speak to me in my daily life and events that happen.i used to feel that God is so far cos i have nv literally heard Him speaking to me cos like pple keep saying if u listen and wait God will speak to you but no matter how i try i nv hear anything...but now i know that God does speak to me, just in a different way i guess and in a more profound way too cos its like thru applications and stuff.i wish i could be what He wants me to be but i know that it takes lots and lots of time and teachability. dear Lord, please help me to grow into the woman You want me to be cos i know i can only do it with ur help...
anyway trg today was not bad i guess... we stopped for a while cos of rain but we managed to do qt alot today i guess... haha... i always really dun look forward to trg but i guess its ok lah i guess haha...there was some tension today tho...i oso dun really wanna be involved in it lah...ok! THEY"RE BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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